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Wednesday, January 04, 2006
i feel so empty.
to the beat of my heart.
hilary duff. fine, i cant feel my heart at all.
there's so much i want to say, to tell you, just to make you feel better.
you sounded like you've lost everything, the screw-up's very much caused by me, indirectly or directly, both ways, no matter how i interpreted, has made me feel extremely guilty.
yet i cant just make empty promises.
i cant guarantee you anything.
i hate myself sometimes, why is it forever you who run or fly down to me when i need you.
i want a role reversal, i want to be right by your side when you need someone.
but it seems impossible.
i want to see you.
you dont want to see me ever again.
i value my pride and went FINE.
when actually it's not fine with me at all.
let's just forget about everything.
i believe in myself. i'll get over you.
but no, it's just you and you and nothing else running through my mind for the whole day.
i lost you.
lost myself.
and there's nobody standing beside me to make everything alright.
i refused to accept what they've said.
i AM hunting around for heartbreaks.
but i'm not giving up on fighting for what i want.
there'll eventually be a day when i hold possession of what i need.